So I’ve gotten into the habit of doing 15 minute self portraits followed by 15 minute journal entries and usually after that I give myself an hour to draw or work on whatever I want.

Today I’m deciding to write instead of draw cause there’s many thoughts in my head that I want to get down and a journal entry doesn’t seem like the right place for it.

I’ve made the impulsive decision to make this blog public but I think I’ve done it for good reason.

Reason 1: A goal of mine for 2022 is to connect more deeply and authentically with people. With people I know and with those I don’t know yet. It’s firm in my beliefs that sharing experiences back and forth creates strong bonds between humans and that is something I realize that I crave.

Reason 2: I’ve found myself forgetting about this blog and using Instagram more and more but while using it I remember being bored and unsatisfied by it. At times I want to share more but am scared of “polluting people’s timeline” the voice in my head calls it with multiple posts or posts with lots of text. This way I have a safe space where people who care can come to if they are interested. Definitely an RSD concern lol.

Reason 3: I feel confident enough in myself as a person to start sharing myself authentically. I don’t think I’m scared anymore of people seeing me. My goal is to give myself the freedom to be seen as I am and not as I want to be seen. That’s my goal for this blog. I think it’s important we share all of ourselves with each other, the good and bad parts. I want to get better at that.

Reason 4: I want to live a more completely creative lifestyle and I want to get paid for that lifestyle. I want to get paid for just being myself, that’s my dream. By making this public I hope to take the first serious step towards being more vulnerable and an artist first.