P4MH Apr 24: Perched on the Precipice.

Only looking back to see how far I’ve come, perched on the precipice of my consciousness taking stock and separating from the flock ready with my beak sharp.
Ayooo five days without an upload, I slipped. I’ve been painting but just not posting here. Have been posting to my ig stories however. I think I’m ready to post to my IG after I post here. These paintings are fitting comfortably in 30mins.

I’ve been meaning to do a photo dump of February but there’s so many that I get overwhelmed and overthink it and because I want to chronologically post everything I feel blocked. I think I have to let go of the chronological and post what I want when I want. I’m not posting for them or for you, I’m posting for me, posting for Eli. No one else will.

I want my ig page to reflect the passage of time and my attempt at consistency and commitment to this craft. I’ll post the ones I am most comfortable and proud of posting and maybe even the ones I’m not as they will serve as lessons when looked back upon.

A thought occurs, maybe I’ll post at the end of each day, my painting being the opening and as I take pictures and videos throughout the day I’d add them to a carousel or reel and post at the end of the day as a recap. Perhaps even do journal entry and meditation right before. I think down the line maybe. For now just the paintings.

Reminder to self: The purpose of this blog is to ensure I am consistently painting and sharing work for myself primarily and not for external validation. I know there’s likely flaw in the thinking but I feel this exercise has been successful. I’ve built a habit of doing these paintings for myself, the reward being seeing it in a format that allows me to reflect on the work and find a kind of closure through writing while also sharing it and in doing so giving myself the permission to be my authentic self publicly.

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